i started this as sort of a joke/prank, to see what being in the thinspo comm is actually like.
I started to get addicted to looking at thinspo, and then dieting to the point where starving myself started to feel powerful and hunger became pleasure.
I lied to two people:
my best friend and her mother, someone who had been like a mother to me and I am forever greatful for that.

I lied to them about eating, I lied to my best friend about my participation in the abc diet and I lied to myself about what i was doing.
It’s not right, and I’m so sorry because at this point i think i may have lost her forever.
my name isn’t charlotte and i’m not into thinspo anymore. 

(annaruthsalisbury:via hderosette)

so today I’m going to play it safe and have a apple for breakfast.
I have to go to my grandpa’s birthday today and that side of my family are italian, so there’s going to be soo much food there.
it’s hard to hide dieting when you’re around lots of people… i know everyone o nhere already knew that, though :P
I’ve lost almost a kilo and I feel great!!! It’s probably just water weight but if I keep this up… i’ll reach my target before i know it! :D

ate a little over today.
started off well but had to go to my aunt’s house and she practically forced me to eat soup and peanut butter, so i skipped the apple and kiwi fruit and did some dancing.
i also jogged for 15 minutes this mroning, and my calorie counter said it burnt off 115 cal, so my intake today wi around 500-550 ;__;
50 over, but tomorrow’s a new day.
wish me luck!

day 1

He keeps telling me that exercising isn’t going to do anything for me, and that I’m stupid. Maybe when I’m skinny he’ll care about me more. I’m sick of it.

if it’s true that peanut butter speeds up your metabolism?

(via roadtothin)

(via bonjourskinny)

Dream stomach!

(via roadtothin)

<3 want!

I just woke up D:<
I was supposed to get up early for a run, but I slept an extra 5 hours D:
so this is what I’ve had today:

Piece of toast
Herbal Tea

Still going to have:

Green Apple
Kiwi fruit
Tomato
Lettuce
Olives

All under 500 calories, although the diet says I’m supposed to have 500 today and tomorrow. Maybe under is good too?
Hopefully if I eat lots throughout the day, my metabolism will think I’m eating normally.